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My Name: Sng Shu Ling Eveleen
Birthdate: 31/12/85
Favorite ---
colours: I like most colours except grey and baby pink.
food: uncountable! I live to eat! Yum!
music genres: hip hop, r&b, pop
pastimes: basketball, netball, squash, table-tennis, swimming, sentosa, shopping, slacking and chilling out at a place that has a nice ambience with friends!
Things I want to achieve.
Grow closer to God, Be consistent in everything, Be accepted, Be more hardworking, Save more money
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Tuesday, July 15, 2008
tired
my mind is in such a state of turbulence that i feel so saturated. and i'm not having enough sleep. my dad scolded me non stop in the car until richard's place. i wish time would stop just for a while to let me breathe. i need some fresh air. everything is bottled up and it feels like it's getting stale. God, please give me stength.
there is so much angst inside me that i have no idea where to start. even if i were to start, it wouldn't be here cause it's too public. maybe it's time to make sacrifices.
plus, the boy is leaving in 9 days. and having sch everyday with tons of fucking projects which i totally hate is not helping me to have time with him. apart from that, i have training. all the quizzes, presentations and exam just have to be at the time when he is leaving. so timely yeah. the worse part is. NOBODY understands. the burdens that i have. the heavy weights on my shoulders when my shoulders ain't big at all. i feel all ALONE. the environment around me ain't conducive at all. it's not warm and welcoming. it's just so cold and i always feel detached from everything. it's only when i'm with him that i can be myself. if only everyone was like him.
gosh, i feel like breaking down already. i should stop and be strong? way too cliche already.
dear God, i surrender everything to you. i pray that with You, i can achieve what i find it difficult to, Lord.
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