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Wednesday, February 25, 2004

Things are pretty fine today. Was damn stressed up yest day. Sigh. But i dun wanna talk abt unhappy things. Well, had a bball friendly with cj girl's team and we thrashed them man!! WoohOo!! 51 - 21 Isn't that great! Yeah, tho i was quite blur but i still managed to score a little. Felt jubilant when we won! Guys won too!! Yay!! Heez. Met en for din later.. Yup, guess that's abt it.. Nothing much.. But i was hit on my lips!! So angry! I elbowed back. At that instant i just couldn't care less. Think i fouled quite a lot also. Heh. Oh well.. The most 'pek chek' part was that i shot a 3 point with a foul and it wasn't counted!! Damn damn damn!!!!! gRrrrrrrrr.............

[ I miss you.. ]
at 11:48 PM

Wednesday, February 18, 2004

I am such a selfish person. I made her so pressurized and i didn't realise it until now. Why didn't i wake up sooner and reflect on my actions.It is all because of what i did that caused me to be in this state. If only... But i guess it's all too pointless to say anything to salvage it now? Hopefully, i'll be given another chance. Chances are slim though. All i can say is that i only have myself to blame. Thanks to all my friends who have been tolerating my lousy attitude. I know i am a crybaby to all of you. But when i cry, i have a reason. Just that i am too weak to keep it to myself. I admit i am a weakling. I will not give all of you so much problems anymore. I am sorry.


I was such a strong person then. Nothing could bring me down when i was with you. But jealousy and posessiveness took over me all the hateful thoughts came to me. Instead of looking at the bright side, i choose the bad side. How could i have been such a person. No wonder you hate me so much at times. Now i know. But only i can make myself be strong again as it is me who chose the wrong path. I want to be the old me again. I dun wanna be brought down again. I look forward to a new day so i will have a new start. Right now i feel like shit cause i have hurt so many people. But i want this to be a mistake that i learn from so that i will not hurt anyone like this again. God bless me...



En, I have been too much and it is only after so long that i realised. Sorry to put you through so much. I guess i love you too much and have been very self-centered. I did not bother about your feelings and to everybody's feelings. It has taken me a long time to wake up and i hope it is not too late. If it is, it's ok. It's all my fault and i will not blame you for anything. Thanks so much for what you have done for me. Whatever it is, i will be still waiting. I love you...

[ I miss you.. ]
at 10:06 PM

Friday, February 06, 2004

I'm lost in this hypocritical society. I hate the way my life is now. It's distorted and i cannot do anything to salvage it. I feel helpless. Really lost and confused most of the time. I try so hard but i still fail. Am i born a failure? I feel that i'm at the lowest point of my life now. All i want is just a few nice supporting words from you. Is it so difficult? You make me seem as if i'm absolute rubbish. But you know what? I still love you.. No matter how much you hurt me, i still love you.. I may seem foolish and you think that you dun wanna hurt me but do you know what i really want, what i really feel? I hope and i wish that there's still a chance that we may go back to what we were in the beginning. Sigh. I'm dying.. I really am and i nearly died yest. I dunno what to say anymore. I'm tired. I just wish that this stage of turbulance will die off.. I'm praying..

[ I miss you.. ]
at 4:44 PM

Monday, February 02, 2004

Anybody miss me? I've finally time to blog. Let me recall.. CNY seems so long ago. Will just briefly update yeah? The first day was pretty much the same, just went visiting to relatives house then second day was at my dear's place. Hehe. =X Third day had rehearsal for sunday as i was the m.c for the grassroot community lunch. Went to my sec sch chi teacher's house then to equinox!! Celebrated my cousin's birthday!! The view there is so damn good! Feels great to be at the 70th level eating high tea!! Met dear later, walked around suntec then went to dear's ex classmate house. So funny. Guess at the end of the day they dun even know my name. Cause i didn't do any self intro but i just sat down and gmbled with them. haha. Besides, dear chiong into the toilet the first thing she stepped into the house. Oh well.. Went to dear's place later. Her classmates were there too.. They playing mahjong. Went home really early to 6+am. Haha. Day 4, was the m.c for the lunch then went home change and my dad fetched me to jiji's hse. There for steamboat. Wore same shirt as my darling. Cool eh? Muahahaha. Played balckjack. Me and dear was banker together and we won $$. Went home around 10pm and my dear cycled me to the mrt station. She's just the ultimate sweetie pie. Next day have sch. Sucks mn. I hate sch. Have bball training on mon. Wed, 28th jan was my sch annual cross-sountry. Something comical happened that day.. I shall enlighten you peeps abt what happened...


Can't wait to run my x-crty. Final chance to achieve something, final year in sch. However, while i was bathing before going sch, i felt an excruciating pain in my stomach. It was hurting like hell! I was crying and moaning in the bathroom. My face was ghastly pale. My parents got so scared that they sent me to hospital immediately. Went to mount alvernia. The doc checked my anus and i was given a painkiller jab. When i was given that jab, i guess my pain in my stomach had subsided cause the jab felt more painful. The pain was like on and off. It never occured to me that it could be mens cramp. Usually, i'd come first then cramp. This time was different. The irony was that the night before i turned in, my mum came into my room and asked me to bring kotex to sch. She said that her period came and mine might come tmr. I was like, "DUN BE A FOUL MOUTH CAN? I HAVE X-CRTY TMR!!" Anyway, at the hospital, i had to take urine sample as they wanna check. But i had no urine!! After drinking 3 cups of water, i still had no urine!! Just went to toilet to try to squeeze out something. Managed to fill like 1/100 of the container. Haha. As i was wiping my v*****a with toilet paper, i saw blood. So my mens came. HAHAHA!! My mum was like, "FASLE ALARM AR YOU!!!" And so, i had an mc for that day. My dear was so sweet to come down to mount alvernia to find me but i was leaving already when i realised that. I told her to come my house instead. She wanted to but breakfast for me but my parents took me to mac for breakfast. Felt so damn bad. We went to eat when she came then we played table-tennis till it was time to go macRitchie. My parents and the doctor advised me not to run but i ran cause i know i'd regret if i didn't run.


I came in 7th!! Outta all the girls who ran. Felt a great sense of achievement. And i was on MC. heez. I was sad when i learnt of something, then wasn't in the best of mood. Quarrelled. I walked off crying. Still met the rest later and went to thomson. Hell lotsa things happened but i won't elaborate here. But things turned out fine in th end. Better than i expected.. Thanks darling.. You're the best. I love you..


Thurs had bball trainning then fri played bball after sch. Had touch rugby comp on sat. Got into the first team. Hate the stupid referee man. BLoody Fucker. So bloody kayu. He sucks. He blowed a trial when it was a touch. FUcked up idiot. Condemn guys man. Sat was quite sucky. Due to miscommunication, we got damn pissed. Me, wendy and en had to wait for nothing but to realised that the others left. Me and en went queensway cause i need to buy my bball shoes. Before that, we got moody as we couldn't decide what to eat. At the foodcourt, the food seems sucky. And SOMEBODY STOLE MY BOOTS AND SHOEBAG! KNN.. Realised that i forgot to take and it was only a matter of 5 mins, the shoebag was gone! Why you wanna take my boots?? Curse that BLoody person to death. Blooody fucker! Take my shoebag and i'm sure you won't have a good end. FUCK THAT IDIOt!!!!!!!! GRRRRRRRRRRRRR........ Damn bLOody pissed!!! HAd to buy boots and bball shoes. Officially broke. Damn it. Took 961 to woodlands with en. Went to buy food then ate at one of the void deck. Went her house a while to rest cos was really tired then took a cab back. Sigh.. I am so broke. Sun, went to queensway to buy my stuff then town to meet jo and joyce. Went mng and we all bought tops. I spent $$ again. But they said that the top looks good on me so i had to get it.. geez. And they got what they wanted too!! We got what we wanted. heez. I jus hafta scrimp and save now.. bleah. Went to dear's place later. Played poker with her and her aunt. Then ate a lil' there. Cannot stay over.. Sigh.. Sucks man. WEnt home at 11.45pm.


Now going to buy food over.. Then must do hw.. Sigh.. Wait for me darling.. I'm coming.. =)


I love you no matter what and i always will...

[ I miss you.. ]
at 11:46 AM