Favorite ---
colours: I like most colours except grey and baby pink.
food: uncountable! I live to eat! Yum!
music genres: hip hop, r&b, pop
pastimes: basketball, netball, squash, table-tennis, swimming, sentosa, shopping, slacking and chilling out at a place that has a nice ambience with friends!
i am oh so totally in love with my 2 french lecturers. one of them is my tutor and the other marked me for my role play because my tutor was absent. they are really hot-stuff-cannot-bluff. swoons.
i would really love to stand in between them for a photo. hey professeurs, *HINT HINT*
cliche and everyone is playing it but i don't care. i like it and it's for you baby. it's been 4 days since you left but it feels so long already.
When you have to look away
When you dont have much to say
Thats when I love you
I love you, just that way
To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
Thats when I love you
I love you, endlessly
And when your mad cuz you lost a game
Forget Im waiting in the rain
Baby i love you,
I love you anyway
Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
WhenI love you no matter what
So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made you cry
Thats when I love you
I love you a little more each time
And when you cant quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
Thats when I love you
I love you, more than youll know
And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you get when you show up late
Baby I love you, I love you anyway
Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
Thats when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
No matter what
[ I miss you.. ] at 4:58 AM
Monday, July 28, 2008 looking back
i was reading my archives just now. it seems that i wrote better then. life for me is so different now especially the environment. i cannot wait to graduate. focus on my priorities. the people that i wrote about last time seemed to fade away with time. they have moved on and they are so different from last time.
anyway, i'm glad i made the right choice 3 years 7 months ago.
[ I miss you.. ] at 1:33 PM
Saturday, July 26, 2008 he left me for korea
he's gonne be gone for 5 months. and only one day has passed. i'm so tired. although i have no sch on mon, i have an exam to sit for. i've been thinking. but i still don't have an answer. i miss going to church. i need God in my life. i have been neglecting Him. gosh, i'm in such a mess. will be back when i'm more sorted out. i miss you so much already.
let's start from last thursday. 17th july - NLS quiz 18th july - FI quiz 19th july - physio 2 lecture 20th july - physio 2 lecture 21st july - FI log book (conclusion for previous labs and must pay attention to lab cause informal report due the next week) 22nd july - french role play script 23rd july - cat tech quiz 24th july - the worst of all. cat tech practical buffet, apfs field trip, biomech mid-sem and my dearest flying to korea for 5 freaking months! 25th july - NLS and APFS reports due, FPQA quiz 26th july - bio mech 2 lab 27th july - bio mech 2 lab 28th july - informal report for FI due 29th july - french role play (i think) training 30th july - finally can breathe a BIT 31st july - APFS quiz 1st august - training 2nd august - training 3rd august - training 4th august - project interview 5th august - training 6th august - ost 7th august - project presentation APFS 8th august - FI logbook due 14th august - FPQA report due 19th august - cat tech test and physio 2 mid sem 22nd august - final exam start
and i didn't include the trainings that i have been skipping or going to skip in july cause of the damn bloody hectic schedule i have. it's not that i want to you know. i just pray they understand. can somebody just kill me or something. sometimes, i really really want to break down and cry the whole day but it doesn't help. Father Lord, i pray for strength. i feel so lost sometimes.
my mind is in such a state of turbulence that i feel so saturated. and i'm not having enough sleep. my dad scolded me non stop in the car until richard's place. i wish time would stop just for a while to let me breathe. i need some fresh air. everything is bottled up and it feels like it's getting stale. God, please give me stength.
there is so much angst inside me that i have no idea where to start. even if i were to start, it wouldn't be here cause it's too public. maybe it's time to make sacrifices.
plus, the boy is leaving in 9 days. and having sch everyday with tons of fucking projects which i totally hate is not helping me to have time with him. apart from that, i have training. all the quizzes, presentations and exam just have to be at the time when he is leaving. so timely yeah. the worse part is. NOBODY understands. the burdens that i have. the heavy weights on my shoulders when my shoulders ain't big at all. i feel all ALONE. the environment around me ain't conducive at all. it's not warm and welcoming. it's just so cold and i always feel detached from everything. it's only when i'm with him that i can be myself. if only everyone was like him.
gosh, i feel like breaking down already. i should stop and be strong? way too cliche already.
dear God, i surrender everything to you. i pray that with You, i can achieve what i find it difficult to, Lord.
