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Tuesday, April 18, 2006

everytime i log in to my blogspot account, i'm still puzzled as to why the page that i'm looking at is all in chinese. i tried changing it but it doesn't work. can someone help me with this? it's hard to comprehend these chinese characters as they are in "fan ti zi".

oh well. had nice quality time with my partner today! we started our day early by going down to the sports hall for a game of badminton. i'm determined to master the strokes in badminton. i just need more practise! swam and relaxed in the pool then headed to town. did some last minute studying and it's off to battle ground. sad to say, i've lost some marks in my physiology paper already. felt so disappointed in myself. i'll work harder for my next paper!

rich and i have been focusing more on God these days and i have to admit that God really draws us closer. no doubts, we may still have quarrels over our religious beliefs as i am a very young christian but i find us spending more quality time than quantity time. i want to thank you for your patience in guiding me though i may be so sinful at times. thank you God for not forsaking me even if i did not follow your ways. may we be able to maintain this relationship the way that God wants us to. i pray that rich will have a good time tomorrow on his first day of work and for joyce to have wisdom and knowledge when she sits for her papers. i pray that you will give her the courage make whatever decisions that she makes for you, Lord.

i've been really encouraged by rich to read the bible as i do not do my quiet time regularly. really owe many apologies to Him. there's this verse in the bible that always calms me down when i find people accusing me of things that i didn't do or if they exaggerate. i feel like getting back at them so much. to hurl back twice the insults. now, i think it's only a viscious cycle if the insults just keep flying back and forth. i'd rather take it in my stride and let them feel the self gratification at that instant. how long can they feel that self gratification anyway? think i've been digressing. the verse: 1 Peter 3:8-10

"Finally, all of you, live in harmony with one another; be sympathetic, love as brothers, be compassionate and humble. Do not repay evil with evil or insult with insult, but with blessing, because to this you were called so that you may inherit a blessing."

there was one night that i stayed over at jowyne's place with the girls from church. we were playing this puzzle game that michelle made. we took turns to choose a little card out of the puzzle and had to answer the question that was written behind. there was this question that i picked and i was asked, "which is my favourite verse in the bible and why?" at that time i couldn't remember which was the exact verse so i vaguely told them about the verse that i just typed. i only remembered that it was from the book of 1 Peter. anyway, this was the exact verse that i wanted to tell you girls if you girls do read my blog.

this one verse makes me a better person at times. (yes, i still do complain and bitch to rich or joyce but that's about it. once it's out, we laugh about it and forget.) perhaps, by remembering this verse, i'll learn to forgive and forget better.

hey rich, does this count as qt? :)

i miss camps! (i always do.) i miss all the inno people! will be seeing a bunch of them soon during the dive trip! i'm thankful to have such friends like them. they never fail to brighten up your day with all the nonsensical conversation. thanks aaron for speaking up so much for me! you know what i mean. can't wait to work with you and kelvin if i get a chance to.

if only i could blog like this everyday. i must admit that i'm not a very intelligent person so i cannot write very intellectual blogs or write blogs with very good english. blogs with good english impresses me a lot even if there's lots of bitching in it. as long as the language flows, minus the many mis-spelt words and many singlish, the posts should be pretty enjoyable and worth reading.

[ I miss you.. ]
at 1:31 AM

Saturday, April 15, 2006

my first paper starts on mon. human physiology. gonna mug for it and score! besides, i still have my assignment on cardiovascular to do. so many things to accomplish, so little time. i'll be going on my scuba diving trip on the 21st! i can't wait! it'll be like a short break for me from all that is happening in my life. i need some money! so damn broke. gimme my pay!!! i need new jobs after hearing all my friends talking about the jobs that they are doing or gonna do. they are earning like $40 an hour? i'm only earning $5. miserable ain't it?

so many people are selling tissues to make a living. from young children to old man and woman. yes, i'm a very lucky girl to be able to sit in front of my laptop to type all these out. but is the living standard in singapore so high that so many people must resort to selling tissues? i feel so sad for these people yet i can't possibly buy tissues from everyone of them. are the rich getter richer and the poor getter poorer? there isn't any form of organisation that can extend their help to these people? what is happening to our society? what happened to all the money that were donated to charity?

kids these days aren't easy to handle too. i do admire teachers who still command respect from their students and parents. especially the kids that i've seen. they amaze me with all the words that they know which are never taught in school.

the world is ugly. people who try to act all nice to you may be bitching about you right in your face without you knowing. i don't think it's right to hurl insults at people when you do not even know them well. a superficial outlook. would you think that these people would be beautiful on the inside and outside? i would think not.

my partner has been great all these while. though we may have our stupid quarrels, deep down our hearts we know that we love each other truly. with the love of God, we would be able to overcome all obstacles. i love you rich. since the day i met you.

[ I miss you.. ]
at 10:28 AM