Monday, March 31, 2008
a time for me to?
since the day after the bomb was dropped, i felt utterly miserable. a million times more miserable from the moses saga or quitting from teaching. it was something that tore my heart into a million pieces knowing that i was the cause of it. something that was gone under my guidance. i was never half as good as them and i know i will never ever reach to that standard. i don't have enough drive for that. i wonder if it was me or it's the sport that i killed myself with.
it seems that i have kinda entered depression and my self esteem at the lowest point.
richard read me this.
Ecclesiastes 3: 1-8
"There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven:
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace."
now, what is the time for me? one thing for sure. a time to heal. the rest, i don't know.
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Wednesday, March 19, 2008
st patrick day
just an interesting observation i've made on that day. monday 17/03/08 was at bam booze with en, germs and wanting when we saw this interesting green beer. we were damn curious and wondered what the taste would be like so we decided to order a mug.
"hi, may we know what beer is that? (points to a mug of green beer drank by an ang moh)"
"oh, that is just normal beer with some food colouring cause it's st patrick day today."
HAHAHAHAHAHA! were bridging too. favourite game and eating ah pek peanut. too bad we didn't eat "flat chicken rice" i don't how to spell flat in malay. but i know ayam. we had dinner at magic wok. the prices were reasonable but the food was totally not satisfying. i changed my dish with en. next time we go there, we shall eat either nasi lemak or ayam p***** (don't know how to spell) and chill at charlie corner.
Labels: happy belated st patrick day
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been MIA for 1 month plus from this blog. missed blogging so here i am. i've been having holidays since 27th feb. so glad that this damn hectic sem is over! both for ecu and tp. by God's grace, He walked me through the tough periods. DB, assignments, mid terms, quizzes, projects and final exams. i managed to clear both ecu and tp modules with not too bad results which was a blessing to me. i expected more for sports psycho but i'm happy with it. i'm glad there's no supps! hooray! gpa dropped but i'm still happy. limited vocab. only know happy and glad.
the latest news about me is that i have a 3cm cut on my right toe which needed 3 stitches. it's hard to explain in words how i got it and my english ain't good enough to pen down the exact senario. ok, i'm lazy. but if you want the full story, can call me or msn me to ask. you can laugh at me or show some care.
celebrated van's bday too. had gelare. yummy. and she likes the presents! wanna wish you happy belated bday if you do read this. love you lots!
been out with joyce dearest quite a few times this hols. always great to see her. many many loves. get well soon babe!
seeing db peeps loads cause of training and planning recruitment stuff. hope we do a good job. no matter what our situation is, let's not give up and show others what we are made up of.
new module for ecu just started. i like the tutor. ((: this module is gonna be fun! my last hope for HD. gonna work hard.
hopefully, i can go aussie this year! can't wait. wanna go korea too!
been seeing en in sch lately cause she still has sch! HAHAHAHA! just a few more days and it will be over. i wanna go crabbing.
i love ice cream. been having ice cream chef and gelare. fattening but i don't care. the tantalising taste lingering in the mouth. makes me feel that i'm on cloud 9 when consuming those high calories stuff. call me out on an ice cream date anytime!
richard yew has been a busy boy recently. haven't had proper time with him. but he is always there when i desperately need him. so thank you dear! i love you loads!
i feel really blessed. i love you mummy and daddy. you're the best parents one could ever have. i feel like a lousy daughter to you but i'll make it up when i earn big bucks!
lastly, the only One who can give me all i have. my dear Heavenly Father, dearest God. thank you for everything. for blessing me with good times and bad times and all you have blessed me with on earth. i love You and thanks for always forgiving me for the many million times i've sinned.
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