Friday, October 31, 2003
Sunshine after the rain? hmmm.. hopefully things will remain like this always. tmr last paper and i didn't even study. how dead am i. just dun haf the mood. can play tmr! woot. and i'm going out with yoUuuu... heez. glad that we're still together though..
[ I miss you.. ]
at 12:54 AM
Wednesday, October 29, 2003
Compared to what i've read in Joyce's blog. i seem like the complete opposite. a complete loser. i've just lost someone precious to me. wonder if there's ever a chance again. sigh. am i really so lousy? guess i am. am the lousiest gf in the whole wide world. can't bring happiness to you.. bleahz. i suck. i wanna get a head shot man.
[ I miss you.. ]
at 9:17 AM
I'm an unreasonable fool. How could i be such a fucked up person. I really regretted all my actions. I dun wanna lose u. how could i be such a fool. my heart is breaking now. just a few hours before, we were still talking abt what we could do after our promos. why did i hafta throw all that away. i should seriously whack myself up. i dun wanna feel this way. it's driving me nuts.. i can only pray for ya forgiveness..
[ I miss you.. ]
at 12:15 AM
Sunday, October 26, 2003
Finally, we're done with our written report! woot. love my grp so much! they're the best!! heez. left with math paper on mon and econs paper 1 & 2 on fri. it's gonna be time to party soon!! woOohOoo!!
For youuuu:
Your existence is the reason of mine
And my love for you runs deep
With you around, I'll shine
The key to my heart is yours to keep
This poem is for you duly
And though it's lousily written
My darlin, I love you truly
I hope it got you smitten
-zeven- *muacks*
[ I miss you.. ]
at 2:49 AM
Wednesday, October 22, 2003
Econs paper today. think it's a goner. the more i think abt it the more i wanna burst out crying. i missed elaborating on one whole part that i'm supposed to. bleah. what's new. i should be studying my lit now but i'm just not in the mood. i have tons of emotions in me and i'm oppressing it as i can't let it out yet. i want to but i do not have the courage. i wanna tell you about how i feel. i just can't help but feel that way. sigh. why is the world so unfair? hope i won't flunk my gp essay tho i think i'd flunk my compre. life can be so sickening at times. i wanna write out everything here, abt how i feel but i dun want to because it's a world wide web. maybe i should just scream. but is there a secluded place for me to scream? i wanna find my haven. where is it? are you my haven? i know ya my paradise and i wanna be sure that i'm yours but somehow i can't help but have this thought that i might not be your paradise. sigh.. sometimes, i really wish a car would bang me down. then can i get away?
Loving is not how you forget but how you forgive, not how you listen but how you understand, not what you see but how you feel, and not how you let go but how you hold on.
love is gentle
love is kind
love is not made up of jealousy
love is not being spiteful but being forgiving
love is being understanding
love is being frank
love is all about loving you and giving you all that i can give..
[ I miss you.. ]
at 9:12 PM
Tuesday, October 21, 2003
I AM DAMN SCREWED. promos is tmr and i feel the least prepared. muaha. kinda stressed. yest i broke down again. why?? my tears kept flowing down non-stop no matter how hard i controlled. i tried to stop but once my mind starts to wander... the tears just kept flowing. i felt like a loser at that point. just think that i'm a lousy ass. geez. there nearly wasn't us. but i'm glad we've made it through the day. my heart just melts whenever i'm in your sweet embraces. i never wanna let go when i'm holding ya hand.. i just wish: i could be as good as you wish for. be the one that you want. for your trust and confidence in me.. and i want you to be happy always... tho i know you'll never read this...
-zeven-
[ I miss you.. ]
at 10:29 AM
Sunday, October 19, 2003
Went for bbq steamboat today. Had a great time! The balls pic was taken with my hp. cool eh? heez. played table soccer too and i walked back from 'long chun' with my zeven. heh. enjoyed today lots!! must really thank ee lin for the dinner!! now must study really hard for my upcoming promos. all da best ppl!! take care. ciao~
Hate, that comes from us human being, is that humanity inhumanity? We can choose not to hate yet it comes from us deep within when we really hate somebody to the core. Why? This question intrigues me. I think that we choose our feelings somehow at the end of our day. We may have emotional surge at times but when we cool down and reflect on our emotions, we can choose how to handle it. So try to not hate anyone. Love everyone and let them love you back too!! Give every one a chance and never judge a book by it's cover. I love you ppl who's reading this, esp to all my friends, and my beloved one. muacks, muacks, muacks!! =)
[ I miss you.. ]
at 1:43 AM
Saturday, October 18, 2003
hello hello!! wassup?? can't really be bothered to blog anymore. heez. just plain lazy. more interested in friendster. find that thing really amazing. can dig out all my lost friends with clicks, clicks and more clicks. anyway, this week was a boring week. nothing interesting happened. just went to sch to attend lessons. felt really stressed up on wed and adding to that, my zeven ignored me. sigh. just broke down. and that idiot had to trick me!! gRrr.. thank god things went back to normal after that. heez. yest stayed back till like 7 to finish pw. hate it, take up so much of my time. today.. stayed till abt 4+ in sch to finish up some work. gonna sleep soon. ciao~
[ I miss you.. ]
at 12:15 AM
Saturday, October 11, 2003
Sorry peeps. Didn't update for a lOoong time. Just didn't had time to come online. Anyway, some interesting things happened in school. Heh. Kutu was lectured by our most BELOVED dm for 90mins. Muahahaha. On what? On her personal online diary! An online diary is one where you can write what you want! It's open to everyone out there. If you like it, you read it. If ya not happy, fuck off! That's your problem. Get a life. Apparently it started all because of some complains from someone. Well, if ya not happy about what others comment on you, you should reflect on ya actions. See what you've done to make them have these comments on you! Dun blame others when you have not reflected on your actions. Sheesh. Ct is pissed about our class punctuality rates. Seems like many ppl have been coming to sch late lately. Muaha. Cool class eh? My house is gonna be a permanent pw meeting place man. Haha. My group have been coming here for 2 consecutive sundays. Sigh. We're on draft 4 now. Teacher still not happy about our written report. Bleah. They're coming again this sun and Joyce will be coming earlier to swim. WooHOo. Can get darker! Today is YJC openhouse. I hate to say this but I feel that it is quite a failure. I wonder what this sch is thinking. Promos is coming and THERE'S OPEN HOUSE NOW? Oh well. WHat can I say? THIS IS YJC. Very little schs came. But I think I did have fun though. I played touch rugby with the ruggers, some bball, conducted the mass games, table tennis with Carol and I ran 2.4km on the treadmill. Ain't that bad for me. Had a treat too. Went to jiji's house after that. Then had dinner with 'even'. Hee. Guess that's about it? Will update again soon!
Some ppl who dun even know me personally can bitch about me like nobody's business. What the hell? Is that childish or is that ABSOLUTELY CHILDISH? Can't be helped. Guess some ppl born in the year 86 ppl dun mature that fast. P.S: This person is not from YJ.
Thank goodness my classmates are super cool dudes and dudettes!!! Ciao~
I love my 'even' lots lots!!!!!!!!!!!
[ I miss you.. ]
at 2:07 AM
Wednesday, October 01, 2003
I still can't get started on my pw. This is so bad and our written report is late. Oh no...
[ I miss you.. ]
at 2:05 AM
