Monday, September 21, 2009
Revival
My blog is dead for too long.
Today is the first time I felt so alone in a very long time. My parents are overseas, richard is busy, sister is out with her bf and I'm alone at home. So far, I haven't been doing well as a christian, as a daughter, as a gf and everything else. It makes me feel so ashamed of myself. I feel that I don't walk the talk and am a very irresponsible person with no sense of urgency. I also haven't been disciplined in my exercise and eating habits. Hence, the increased in fat percentage and no decrease in weight. I have to do something about it.
Yesterday, I said that I wanted to go to school to run today but did i go? No. I couldn't wake up. I really wanted to but i slept at 3+am so I know I wouldn't make it as I wouldn't have enough rest. I haven't been sleeping well for the past few days. Been sleeping too late and so, I can't wake up early. Can't seem to sleep early. I want to be a good and faithful christian but I don't know how to go about it. Doing quiet time isn't that hard right, I just need to take out my bible to read and pray but I don't even do that.
I want to make changes in my life. I want to walk my talk. God, can I do it? I pray for strength and wisdom, Lord and I entrust my life to you.
Heard some stuff and can't help but feel awfully pissed. So what if you guys know what is going on and don't like it? You guys don't have a right to comment because you all created the mess and left it up to us to clean it. You guys said you don't want to have anything to do with us, so why bother? Just move on with your life and not bother with them, please. It has NOTHING to do with you guys anymore. I'm so glad I left the areana, though I don't know what is happening now, I feel so much lighter. It has gotta be the worst sports experience I ever had. Can't believe that a team would be so dysfunctional.
Labels: rants
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at 3:21 PM
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Too bad for you
I've never been so irritated and annoyed by anyone this much in my whole life. Nobody owes you a living. Where ever you go to work/play/study, it's the attitude that counts. The respect you have for others will determine the respect others have for you. The way you carry yourself and making the first impression counts. Basic social ettiquette too. Think you have any of those? Sorry, I think not. And yet, you expect hospitality from all of us. You should know that you are at the losing end, not any of us.
I don't know why the behaviour potrayed affects me so much. Gosh, to think that I was even kind enough to disseminate information. I truly feel that we don't deserve anything of what you've said. Please reflect on your behaviour. It really disgusts me. We tried to be nice, but I guess it's really impossible to hold a decent conversation with you because you're too self-centered. I'm sorry, you're all alone. Continue to be cooped up in your bubble. I don't care anymore.
Labels: our gain, Your loss
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at 1:02 AM
Friday, March 20, 2009
I love HOLIDAYS
I was triggered by a certain blog to blog.
Some updates since the whiny post.
I completed Singapore Biathlon. Not a great timing but I finished 1.5km open water swim and a 10km run.
Up your service course which was fun because of the people.
Chalet. I paid $8 to eat a few pieces of chicken wing, crabmeat, marshmellows, sausages. I didn't stay over. I saw that there was beer. Did we pay for that too? Cause if we did, we definitely wasn't offered any. It was supposed to be some FSN BBQ. You know what it felt like instead? Different cliques of FSN gathering at the chalet. What pissed me off the most? We have muslim friends and one of the food in the grill was not halal. They don't understand Chinese yet they had to watch Campus Superstar on TV. How considerate coursemates that we have. It's ok. Since they had the TV, we thought we could retreat to the room to get some peace and quiet and have our own chats. But we got funny stares when they wanted to retrieve their valuables in the room that we were at. I mean, if anyone wants to criticise us, please think of your own behaviour. Enough about that. I'm probably gonna get hate mail soon. But I don't care.
Training camp at sentosa. I think I am very chao geng. I missed first day of camp when they ran and clocked a hell lot of mileage. Second day of camp already almost killed me with drills, swim and run. Results were out that day. First time I got it through SMS. Last day was running up this tiny hill which killed me too. I know I am weak. Sigh.
Had a few fun days of shopping with my mum at Taka (cardholders had additional 10% storewide on top of anything that was already discounted), Isetan private sale and OG private sale. Bra shopping too! My mum is a member of La Senza. I like the bras there.
Movie marathon with Richard. Dragonball evoluation, PUSH and Race to Witch Mountain. Caught Watchmen too before the marathon!
Finally finished the poster for Youth Health Symposium. Thanks to my team members, Benjamin and Richard for all the help given!
OSIP luncheon. Okay, I didn't eat lunch with them cause I just didn't want to have 2 buffet in 2 days. Sorry peeps. But it was great fun just being there for that short time. Favourite question. WHY @#$%^& ?
Had a great dinner with Richard and his family at Cafe O'Brio yesterday. Seafood extavaganza. Crabs, prawns, oysters, scallops, sashimi, sushi... etc. The desserts were so yummy! Will post a few photos up.
Richard is going through a detox diet now. If he can do it, I can too! Street fighter soon! Whoopie!
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at 10:58 AM
Friday, February 27, 2009
OSIP
It was a choice between Australia, China and Thailand.
Of course I wanted to go aussie. really really really wanted to. i know my gpa isn't the best and it's not a 3.0 but why is it based on grades? i think my cv is not bad. who pursues a degree and a diploma at the same time? and i was also an appointed holder of my cca and we do have some achievements. plus in jc, i had achievements in bball and went for yep. furthermore, my work experience would definitely show i'm independent. camp facilitator and contract teacher. i also worked at nike as a senior part sales person and have attended a customer service course. and come on, my uni is an aust uni. so why was i not selected to go aust. isn't it supposed to be based on character and cv so why why why the pair who was sent to aust was the one with the best grades. i wanted to get work experience in aust so it would be great if i can do my masters in aust and perhaps get a pr. it is not meant to be.
it was a hard choice between china and bangkok. if i didn't get aus, it doesn't matter where else. we chose china cause we've not been there and we wanted to eat xiao long bao. now that we got it, we're kinda scared. cause our chinese isn't exactly the best. would it be better if we had chosen bangkok? well, i don't know.
all i know is that i'll be going to china for my internship so i have to buck up on my chinese.
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at 12:04 AM
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
relieve
after some thrashing, i've decided to heed the advice and wash my hands off it. it's ironic that we're on the same boat (figuratively) yet out of it (literally).
i guess things will never be the same again. i look forward to my future and hopefully, i will gain much more than what i ever ask for.
it's time to venture and explore. what shall it be?
i leave it to God's mighty hands to work on me. amen.
it amazes me how ugly people can get when it is seen and experienced by one. it's unbelievable how much it grew even though it was abandoned. the haunting past is too horrible to bear and it will always stay. has the courage been finally found to give it up? to walk away? it is a mystery yet to be solved until there is a solid answer.
on a side note, i really like this picture.
Labels: peace out
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at 4:20 AM
Monday, February 09, 2009
the truth always hurts
i feel small, not appreciated and sad. to think i've held everything in high regard.
it may not be my niche but i expected more from what have been done. it's ok. i will find my niche and i will do well in it. it only hurts to know how much it affects me.
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at 3:53 AM
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Merry Xmas!
Sorry, for this late Xmas wish and many thanks to those who sms me. Yimei, Minghui, Jeremy Tan, Shuzhen, Runjin, Bryan, Jinmin, Zyndie, Lionel and Evelyn Lee. Sorry I could not reply you cause I was in Korea.
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at 11:55 PM
